"Life is definitely a struggle.. With so much to do and little time to do it, nothing ever really seems to get done.. Trying to stay busy to keep my mind from wondering, yet there is too much time to to fill.. My thinking isn't always fun, it isn't always enjoyable, half the time I wish I were deaf and blind.. Thinking is overwhelming, thinking is like torture.. Because thinking cannot be stopped it is torture, thinking about all you would prefer not to, it just doesn't stop.. Well it can be stopped, But let's NOT do anything stupid.. Thinking here, thinking there, thinking when your trying to sleep, thinking.. Is just TOO much at times.. It hurts to think about the things you don't want to happen but knowing there's no way to fight "THE INEVITABLE".. If you "think" about it, it is definitely an all day type of thing.. Not like there is an OFF/ON switch.. ((I WISH)).. Thinking is a HUGE part of my life.. Although it's not something I like, I WILL get through it.. At least until my LAST breath"
